| What I thought was gonna be horrible turned out awesome! |
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Hey guys! Yesterday I went to a Semi-pro game with Brad and it was so much fun! His cousin Carissa was there and shes the shit! Anyways... it was for Carissa's boyfriend cuz hes in the semi pros and yea... Brittany and Mark were there... that was interesting... so we sat off of the third base line! which were good seats too. mark and britt sat behind home plate so we didnt have to put up with them for the whole game but in the 3rd inning britt came over to talk to carissa and said hi to brad and me and i ignored her and brad gave her the wipe my nose oh hi non shilante hello... it was so funny! so the game ended and the lansing lugnuts won! there was a fireworks show after the game and mark and britt came over to say hi and mark kept leaning over the bleacher to get my attention and once he realized that i wasnt gonna look at him he cleared his throat and said hi beth and i just looked at him and then looked at the field! clasicness! it was great! (oh yeah on a side note, the reason why i was so mean was cuz carissa talked to britt before the game and asked if brad was mad at her and she said yea hes pretty pissed and then britt asked if i was mad at her and carissa said shes angry with what you did to brad and shes not thrilled about what you and mark did to her and britt said she was gonna hold his hand in front of me to piss brad and me off) so when they were around brad and i kept hitting each other and putting our heads on each others shoulders it was so hilarious! so i finally am getting some closure on this! it was a great nite tho! i had a blast with brad!
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| I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[07 Aug 2001|12:27pm] |
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I am so pissed off right now! I fricken hate my ma! she treats me like im two! i hate her i hate her i hate her!!!!!!!!! I swear i cant wait till i go to college, chances are she'll go with me to ruin my life like she does already! i swear she asks me if i have any friends and i wanna say no cuz whenever i wanna go out with them or do anything with them shes gotta be a bitch and not let me do what the hell i want... and its not like were gonna do anything bad, i mean come on! its horse shit... the friends of mine she should trust she doesnt i hate her!!! she needs to take a reality check and realize that this isnt fricken 1950's anymore! god!!!!!! why dont i just die cuz im sure that would be a hell of a lot better then living in this hell hole! and she wonders why my brothers wont call her from college! CUZ SHES A BITCH!!!!!!!!!!
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| i ain no punnnn beeeeeeetttttttttccccccchhhhhh.... |
[06 Aug 2001|06:53pm] |
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haha! good times right katie? yep, gee guys i havent written in here in a while! today i came over to katies house and we watched rush hour! cuz she saw the second one before the first! tell me what sense that makes right? yep! oh well just wanted to say what up and i luv you all! bye!
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| Hey there guys! |
[01 Aug 2001|09:10am] |
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Just thought I'd give you an update... talked to Mark on the phone last nite at midnite, and it took till 2 in the morning but we broke up! He got the boot!!!!!!! He deserved it too!!!!!!! Bye yall!!!!!
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| conspiracy theory!!!!!!! |
[27 Jul 2001|08:19pm] |
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okay i thought things were goin aiight but listen to this... this morning my ma took me to therapy, the chick wanted to bend my knee for me and im like hell no! that hurts when she does that shit to it! but anyways, my ma wants to kno whats goin on with mark and me and i dont think i want her to kno my problems...then she takes it all offensively that i dont tell her things anymore. but whatever, so i got my nails done today and they look PIMP!! hehe! so, i get home right and the phone rings, and chances of it being mark are slim and nill right? cuz the last time i walked in the door he called that second too, well gee guess who it was? yeah... nerd bomber... i was like great cuz i wanna put up with his shit now. so anyways i ask him about wednesday and the jerk goes off saying he went to brittany's and that obviously i knew about it cuz i wouldnt ask and if i have a problem with that too bad. i was like oh hell no he didnt just do that! who does he think he is?!?! tell me that! but anyways, then he goes off bein all nice to me and he wants to take me out to dinner tomorrow since he didnt even call on our two month! what is that? some consilation for his assholeness? no i dont think so... so heres the plan, i told him that was fine and stuff and in reality im not even gonna be home tomorrow cuz joe has games and i have some family thing to do so if he calls i wont even be home!!!!!! haha! CLASSIC i kno! :) i kno it seems really mean but after all hes done to me he deserves it completely! but now im starting to get confused about wheather or not to break up with him, why is he so nice to me? is there a reason or is it just him... ya kno? well i talked to brad and he said that hes a jerk and i shouldnt get played like this! but am i getting played again? i dunno it still seems like it, things are wierd definately! so yea... more to think about on my part! but other than that it was a good day... colleen and katie are coming over in a few... so that should be nice. yea and stan called me again today... last nite at the game he told me that i look cute... i was all giggly, god im such a ditz! oh well! but he is totally awesome and he goes to st joes college... he said he would call me from there when he goes back and whatnot... who knos tho... i dunno what he thinks of me but we'll see... joe makes fun of me whenever i talk to the kid... hes like ohhhh its STAN! haha! oh well... its big time college guys now! lol just jokin!!! but seriously no more little immature games with a guy like that right? nope! at least i would think not. plus hes talked to me about his past with gurls and he is NOT the type to play anyone like that! which is awesome! so we will have to wait and see... all im going to do anymore for relationships and me is lay back and let things go the way they should go... i just hope God has a plan out there for me to make me happy, and i hope He finds someone who isnt going to hurt me like ive been hurt before. i dont think im strong enuf for anymore of that after this one... and if there are anymore i pray to have strength to get thru all of it... hes given me so much within the last year, not only with relationships but family and friends too. lets just say ive been thru so much, you dont even kno... but till then im going to kno that He does have someone out there for me so special and amazing that everyday of my life i will be thankful and grow and love life to the fullest! till then SMILES!
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| what is the most theraputic thing for a gurl to do? |
[26 Jul 2001|09:52pm] |
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well guys... today was a good day... i guess i should start off with how last nite went tho too... so brad and carissa came over... they are totally awesome, they made me feel so much better about everything ive been going thru right now... which is good cuz i totally needed that... then this morning i woke up and my ma wanted me to go shopping with her... well i didnt want to go cuz i was still upset about all the things im putting up with. but for some reason i decided to go with the flow and shop till i dropped... which ended up making me feel so much better! i bought a new phone for my room (its blue cordless!) a few cds and some clothes... i also went into bed bath and beyond and saw this massager thingy that whenever brad comes over to my house always wants a massage from... so i bought him one to bring to college... i hope he doesnt think its gurly tho... but hes such a good friend of mine. whenever he and i talk we always end up smiling... hes been thru a lot with this situation too! but anyways, so we left our house at ten right? yeah well we didnt get back till 4 o clock! and joe had a game so we went to that... and there was this guy there hitting on me it was so funny! hes really nice tho so i kinda feel bad bein mean to him, so im nice! but he told me today that i should go sit in the stands and look cute... haha i dunno to take that as a compliment or an insult! but it made me see that there is more to life than mark, that i WILL and am getting over him, and realizing now... that i didnt deserve to be treated the way he treated me... before all i saw was that i deserved to be treated like ass cuz i was an ass... but i feel more confident now... i hope that this confidence grows and i can show others what ive seen today, not only in me but in themselves as well. everyone has some good in them, its just weather or not they choose to use it. and every deserves the best as long as that good side of theirs shines thru... (mark doesnt have one i dont think... haha! just playing!) even if people are mean, they can have thier moments... just as long as in the end they see what theyve done and learn from it. well im outie 5 thousand guys! talk to ya'll later!!!
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| dirty pop and a good morning! |
[25 Jul 2001|11:25am] |
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Hey there all! I just got home from physical therapy... my knee is a lil sore but its all gravy baby! haha! well to elaborate on what katie said about this mark fellow that she doesnt like... he is my boyfriend, but im not sure for how long... see theres this problem he has with lying to me about things and i find all of it from my friends... he is so shallow i guess. well it started with the fact that he and his best friend who is a gurl almost hooked up before he and i did... and then i guess they are really close... kinda how i am with my friend brad but you all dont kno him... but anyways britt was with brad and broke up with him cuz of some things mark said to her about her not getting hurt but the fact is that he hurt me really bad and hes a hypocrit for it. well last nite i talked to brad and found out that he went over to brittany's house instead of mine when he told me he didnt have a car to drive over so he pretty much lied to me about that situation... and there were other occasions where hed spend time with her and tell me and then act like it shouldnt bother me... well maybe it shouldnt but the fact is that it does cuz of their past... and i have every reason to believe he may have cheated on me cuz of that. he told me one time when i asked him if she said she was ready for a commitment with him and she wanted him what he would do and he must have thought it was a good time to joke around with things like this said "well then ill have to break up with you" what is that? hes like i was joking she doesnt have another chance... so i dunno what to do and i need some advice... katie said to give him the boot but i dunno what to do... HELP!!!!!!!
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| hello everyone its me!!!!! |
[24 Jul 2001|08:14pm] |
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hey guys! whats goin on? nothin much here... this is katie's favorite cousin beth! haha! she and i spent the day together pretty much... we needed some gurl time cuz i hate my boyfriend at the moment... who knos whats gonna happen with that one, ya kno? yeah... so anyways, we watched the NSYNC marathon we taped and then we went out to eat and sat in her room and talked and listened to dave... you guys are thinkin woah... they listened to dave... that made it a great day... and yea it did! :) well i just wanted to say whats up and tell ya'll hey... so ill talk to you later!!!!!! BYE!!!! Beth
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